((((((((((((((((((((Tammy)))))))))))))))))))))
I too had the nightmares and mourning when I first left the WTS. Nightmares of being out of control...of being shunned. My dreams reflected the chaos and power struggle of good vs evil that I pondered every day. I feared for my life during storms. I determined that if the end came and I was still a dub then Jah would destroy me anyway b/c he knows our hearts and would know that I only served as a dub to get into paradise. So I decided that since I would be destroyed anyway, I might as well enjoy the rest of the only life I'd get.
I was wrong. I finally stopped believing in the lies that the WTS preaches. READ as much as you can b/c this helps you learn about their lies. This is what has helped me get over thinking they were right. I now enjoy thunderstorms and I don't fear dying. I enjoy my life free from the requirements and restraints of that aweful cult.
Celebrate your freedom, Tammy. Enjoy life to the fullest everyday!!
-Fire